“Mommy!” I screamed for you that night, the pain I was in, only you could’ve comforted me. Dad tried and I think he was scared for me because I hid what I was going through. For so long I felt I was just in a dark cloud I barely remember the first 6 months you were gone… I’ll never forget that day and the days followed by your death. I wish I could go back and call you the day before like I was supposed too. Instead I called the next day and it was to late, I had to call dad to go check on you. I miss your hugs no one can hug me like you hugged me. I miss me being able to call you and talk for hours. I miss your smell of vanilla, sometimes I get a hint of you. I miss you talking about Shadow and Jackie like they were your children, sometimes you would call me crying because you were sad because something happened to there eggs. I miss you talked my about the horses across the street, I know your riding Mystic up there. I miss you coming and spending the day with me and it turned into a week of you staying with me. I think about you everyday and I feel you all around me. I’m sorry you’re not here, you should be, I’m sorry that you were in a lot of pain all those years. Giving someone pain pills who already had mental health issues was like a ticking time bomb, I wish the system did better for you. I’ll never stop missing you. Until we see each other again, I can’t wait for your embrace. I love you mommy.
Love your Sissy Bug